Ticking Clock

calendar-numbers-dateThe end is near, and I’m not ready. April 30th marks my husband’s last day working for the company. We have one month afterwards to leave before the police come knocking. Singapore does not allow foreigners to just live here without a commercial purpose that benefits the country in some way. Basically, it’s count down time, but I’m far from prepared.

This should be the time of deciding and finalizing, planning and organizing. Months before our move to Singapore, we had checklists by the week to complete. We were excited about our transition and became mission oriented and strategic as soon as the move was confirmed. Now, we’re <<I’m>> ambivalent and procrastinating the inevitable. Without a mandated location, the plethora of options has become a weight rather than a relief.

imageIf it were just my husband and I….if all of our family members were well and secure….if “ifs” were worth entertaining, we’d probably move to Ghana, or SouthAfrican-schoolroom Africa, or hop from country to country or state to state three months at a time to avoid frigid winters. We’d buy rental properties in each place and use the passive income to build a network of African-centered schools to eradicate the educational inequities that plague the disenfranchised across the globe, especially in the pockets of urban America.

We’d be frivolous and hire a personal nutritionist, chef, and trainer that traveled with us to ensure our longevity and make love in every country code. You know, just to stay in shape. I’d write novels, short stories, and plays while sunning in the sand and stick WritingBeside-theBeach-960x565my toes in the waters of every beach, while he’d find every hut, shack, or family-owned restaurant that served the cultural delectables of the city that hosted whichever jazz, hip hop or soul concert he was attending at the time. We’d perform in backwoods churches and overflowing theaters three or four times a week just to spread the message of hope, resilience, and Coming-to-Americarevolution. We’d truly take our freedom papers, multiply them, and spread the spirit of freedom all over the world. We would get it in!!! IF…..

But alas, it is not just he and I. It’s he, she, he, and me.  We both have aging parents and in the books of failing health, we have one and a possible. We’re already at the stage of caring for our children and our elders simultaneously. Truth is, we only had two years when we didn’t have both. Heeding to the twin bellows of obligation and responsibility, we’ve decided it’s time to go back to the U.S.; a decision I’m torn about daily…..

 

8 thoughts on “Ticking Clock”

      1. I’m personally ready to get up out of DFW (Thank you again, btw) for both my own reasons (this weather in DFW….I….just …can’t) and also the duty to aging family. I’m certain wherever y’all go, the mission of BGS & Madali will follow. Keep on, Keeping on…

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  1. I’m personally ready to get up out of DFW (Thank you again, btw) for both my own reasons (this weather in DFW….I….just …can’t) and also the duty to aging family. I’m certain wherever y’all go, the mission of BGS & Madali will follow. Keep on, Keeping on…

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  2. I’m excited that your family will be starting this new journey with a newfound level of freedom! I look forward to seeing you all soon 😉

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  3. You and your family are so inspiring to me! Thanks again for taking the time to brunch with me during my brief stay in Singapore.

    I’m super excited that you guys are moving back to the states. I know you’ve seen the news, our community is in desperate need of strong voices such as yourself.

    I am currently working on an African-centered documentary that I would love to pick your brain about, once your family gets settled.

    Stay blessed and I’ll keep in touch ❤

    Vicky

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